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Talking about my dad

Published: Wednesday 08 Jul 2020 | Edited: Wednesday 08 Jul 2020

I've basically expressed my journey out of Mormonism. I don't know if I've fully captured all that's relevant about my experience there, but I'm happy to revisit it later. Writing about it was actually kinda fun.

The real important, unshared narrative of my recent life is the death of my father. I think I'm going to need to write not only about his suicide, and its underlying circumstances, but also my whole relationship with him, from my childhood.

When I say "need," it sounds like this is some kind of creative writing assignment. What I am starting to feel, is that I really need to do this. It's not so much that I need to write this down, or let anyone else know, as much as I need to sit still and systematically put together my thoughts and feelings about him.

From 19 November 1990 to 9 January 2019, my father was a looming colossus in my life, and then, all of a sudden, he just wasn't.